Over the past couple of months I have been in some sort of transition stage of my life. It’s funny how you never really realize that until you have actually transitioned. Throughout this process I have been learning a lot about myself. I think one of the most exciting and important parts of life is getting to know yourself. At the end of the day, no matter who you lay down next to you are only you and you are alone. And that’s perfectly ok.
I’ve recently realized how precious my own body and mind are. I’m going to start taking better care of both. This is it, this is all I’ve got. There’s no going back, there’s no re-do. I’ve had horrible things done to me and I have done horrible things to others. I can regret these events, but what difference does that really make? I think the difference is where I go with them. And forgetting them is not the answer. The things that leave the biggest impression on us are often the things we want to erase from our memories. But by these events, people and places have changed. They were important for better or for worse. There’s a safe place somewhere in your mind, put it there. Keep it there. Take control. Then, let the goodness wash over you. Feel it, breath it, let it in. When you think you’ve lost, there is no doubt, something to be found.
One of the most beautiful and wonderful things about life is that there are so many chances to start again. I’ve been given a fresh start more times than I probably deserved. It’s not always easy to see it that way, but I’m trying. If there’s one certainty about life it’s that nothing is certain. Everything is constantly changing. I guess we have to do our best to just try to keep up. Keep evolving. Keep moving forward.
“It’s only after we’ve lost everything, that we are free to do anything” –Fight Club
